[10 Oct 2006|09:16pm] I hate this i hate how our whole group of friends has just split up.. i hate being in the middle of my two bestfriends, im not pickin sides..  i hate how im friends with the girl there in the middle between i hate how "he" wont talk to me anymore, we use to be so close, and i hate how i lead him on, i hate that hes "in love" with sum1 he just started talking to not even a week ago.. i hate how he wont talk to me, after how close we were, but the only reason we were so fuckin close is cuz he liked me, i actualy thoguht we were jsu thatgood of friends to where he can actualy talk to me about anything. i could jus fuckin act normal act fuckin dumb do anything and he'd jus laugh.. im sorry i put u thur all this im sorry, i jus want the best fer u but ur pickin the worse .. i wish he'd fallow thur and stop doing everything he does, but i kno its not ganna happen cuz SHE is jus ganna get him in way more way worse shit than he's already going thur. i cant say anymore. Comment'

[10 Dec 2005|05:41pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Beauty in the break...by the scene aesthetic ] oh god, i kno nobody is going to be reading this..i havent used this in god knos how long...but im really not in a good mood and need to say sum stuff.. first off i have this friend, id rather not say who even tho u'll most likely kno who, seein in how i have like wut 2 good friends...but anyways, shes givin me SO much shit latly and i dont even kno hwy im takin it from her anymor, ivebeen so pissed off latly cuz of her, she makes me feel liek shit most of the time and jus likes to put me down all the time. She acts liek shes the center of the world all the time, and tries SO damn hard to fit it with certin people. I guess i just dont wanan say anything seeing in how i just lost ALL of my friends from last year, shes the only one i still talk to from last year. thats an other thing, i miss every1 i used to hang out with, i dont talk to any of them anymor except dewan and sumtimes rod. dewans beame good friends with nicole now tho even tho he always told me how he hated her, but w/e , and rod did the most shadiest thing EVER to me and i couldnt even believe he could of done that to me, seein in how we used to be BEST friends... but w.e , hes just wraped around his girlfriend. god don tget me started on her now, i have SO much shit i wanan say to her, but im not even ganan bother to start things back up with her again , cuz ill admit it i wont lie i do miss her and hanging out with her, i miss it all i miss last summer when i was with her every damn day an di actauly didnt get anoyued of her fer once, i miss being with rod and jamar and dewan all the time. i miss haveing a hting with dewan i do that was the BEST relationship ive ever had with sum1, even tho we never went out we were together fer SO long its crazy i duno i miss how he treated me he acted like i was everything when i was with him, hes the only guy that has ever acted that nice and sweet to me, im the BIGGEST asshole fer with i did to him. =( im sorry. the one person i dont miss and i hope sumtimg HORRABLE happened to him is jamar, siriously i hate him mor than fuckin anything in this world rite now, he is the biggest dick i have ever met in my entier life, and id do anything to jus fuckin choke him er anything to him. but im done with that.. spanky i miss him also, i admit it, i was a shitty "girlfriend" (er wutever u wanna call us) to him also, and im sorry i really am, im sorry fer everything i put u thur and all the shit and drama i started with you. i miss mercedes and bobby and meghan and hannah i never talk to any of them hannah eevry once n a while meghan uh never bobby calls me once in a gr8 while and i havent seem mercedes sence the last time she came over witch was like a year ago? k not that long lol but its been awhile and i miss than all comein over liek eevryday and when mercedes would stay the night adn we'd sneek out to go visit krystina and run around my sub, and when meredes took me to landslide er w.e lol and i got hurt and she was the only one who would help me up and everything ah i loved her and ima bitch fer blamin everything on her fer the meghan thing, and when i choose meghan over mercedes im sorry   w/e kno1s ganan read this im doin this cuz i have no1 to talk to and this is the WORST weekend ever rite now erg,   cya</3 2 | Comment'

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